the laughing tide

thank you so much to all of you who have left comments and emailed me directly about the loss of our beloved lola. i haven't gotten around to thanking each of you personally yet, so please allow me to do so in one big group THANK YOU. your notes mean so much, really. this community is amazing, and it never ceases to amaze me. thank you. again and again.

the tides are turning and laughter is resuming in our household. boo is recovering well. turns out, he had the flu, an ear infection (his first ever - we feel very lucky) and possibly strep throat but we're treating the ear infection with amoxicillan which should bring down strep if he did have it. poor boo. really, he was feverish and lethargic for about a day. his fever lasted three days. but it felt like eternity. especially with everything else going on. our son just sitting in one spot staring into nothing, being quiet, not moving much -- it's way too freaky and unreal. but now he is back. our boo. singing and laughing and dancing and running and throwing and climbing. his appetite is coming back, his fever is gone, and he's making faces like nobody's business to see if he can make us laugh. it's good to have him back.

lola's funeral is tomorrow. tonight we went to her rosary reading. i am to do the first reading at the services tomorrow. i should probably read it at least once first. my mom is doing the eulogy; i am to go up there and finish if she cannot. that's a hefty weight to bear.

tonight after the rosary reading, we went back to my parents' house and it was like old times. cousins and aunts and uncles and kids everywhere, loud and laughing and singing and eating. there are many times when i wish we all lived closer. it is a nice feeling, that warm blanket of familia. boo had a great time tonight playing with his older cousins.

what a first week of 2006, huh? death, root canal, illness, and joy as my business takes off like i never expected it to, especially just in a few days. i wish i had time to really appreciate every emotion in the moment but then something else pulls me another direction, another emotion.

soon i will return to reading all of my favorite blogs and commenting again. very soon. i promise.


deputyswife said...

I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute you wrote. I got teary eyed reading it.

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