day of goodbyes

this morning as i drove boo to school, he was totally great, reading in the backseat, singing to his favorite cd. then we pulled into school. then he started crying. bawling. tears totally streamed down his cute little face and he kept saying "no school, mommy! no school!"

hmm. we had thought that talking to him about it would make the transition easier on him, so he was prepared for it. it is his last day today. but of course, he is just over two, and how the hell does he know what "last day" means? i think he thought he was no longer going at all. he was so excited when i would say he was going to be home with mommy all the time now. except that "now" actually starts, um, a few hours from now. oops.

so he clung to me tightly with his little hands and wrapped his legs around my waist and kept bawling as i was saying goodbye and handing him to one of his teachers.i am sure he will be fine, but it just tore my heart out to see him cry like that.

we're having a party there later for his goodbye, and i have to say, it's a little bittersweet for me too. i really like the teachers and the director there. they're great, and it's been such a great experience for him to be around not only the kids in his class, but to be surrounded by the older kids in the space next to his class. his speech is incredible since he moved to the big kids room. they help reinforce things we teach him at home. they've even offered to watch him every once in a while if i ever have a meeting or appointment or something and need someone to watch him for a couple of hours. how great is that?

i'm having a hard time today. am i crazy? is this going to work? i am so excited but also for the first time, nervous. i know it will all work out, it always does. but once again, i think the transition will be more difficult for me than for him in the long run.

UPDATE: we had ice cream sandwiches for his last day there when i arrived to pick him up and i gave the other kids some bubbles that they could take home. the teachers were great and kept saying to bring him back whenever i needed some time to myself or to run errands or if he just wanted to see his friends at school. we definitely may bring him back there when he's ready for preschool. it's so nice to feel confident about a school that's close to home!


chichimama said...

What a great sounding place! Enjoy your time with your little guy!

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Jill Urbane, The Mentor Mom said...

Good for you! It sounds like a wonderful setting that he was in and how wonderful that they are willing to be a backup for you if needed. I'm sure you are going to LOVE your time at home with him. Best of luck :)

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